1. |
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Am i good enough
Am i cool enough
Does my music suck
Or am i just
A fucking (loser)
Oh
I've been defeated
I guess it's over
I know
I just conceded
Thrown in the towel
I guess
My life is over
I'll never do it
Again
Until I'm sober
And then I'll try to
Pretend
That I'm not drowning
That I can still see the
Light
Inside the tunnel
With the curtains drawn
Tight
In the aparment
Where I can't pay the rent
I'm all alone here
I don't have to pretend
Am i good enough
Am i cool enough
Does my music suck
Or am i just
A fucking
Loser
A fucking Loser
Waking up and getting stoned
Checking twitter on my phone
Oh no
Oh no
There's gotta be something we can do
They're burning the world down it's no use
They're gonna kill us
Oh they're gonna kill if it's the last thing that they do
These rich old white guys don't give up
They'll steal our profits till we're fucked
Enough
Enough
The constant stream of death and pain
Is getting harder to maintain
I'll never get it
Oh I'll just log out and try to occupy my brain
Psychic damage
In my head
Psychic damage
Instead I'll
Try and flush away all my thoughts down the drain
Ill try to
Severe every single synapse in my brain cause this
Psychic damage
In my head
Psychic damage
Instead I'll
Try my best to not let this shit ruin my day
And try to
Pretend that I don't let it eat me away
Away away away away
On and on the story goes
It's just the same shit growing old
So old
So old
Guess I'll crawl back in bed and
Die
Oh I want to
Die
Seeing the shit on the TV
Burning a hole in my screen
Can't help but think that I've seen this before
Oh its the same psychic warfare bullshit that I see every day
I guess I'll get a fucking job
I guess I'll throw my life away
I'll never make it work
I guess it wouldn't matter anyway
Cause I'm a fucking loser
And i guess it's always been that way
And even if I hate this place I guess it's where I have to stay
I'm always getting let down
Pushed around
Nobody's there
It's always
So sad
Too bad
Nobody cares
These fucking asshole
Dirtbags
Running the show
Are gonna get theirs
Fuck you
Let's fucking go
Psychic damage
In my head
Psychic damage
Instead I'll
Try and wash away all the crud in my mind
I'll try to
Forget all the damage and pretend to be fine
I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine
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2. |
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Do you ever feel like we just moved in together?
And nothing feels yours?
And everything is good?
And everything is good.
What’s left to worry about?
Will the laughing ever stop?
And when she leaves for work
and you lay down and you almost start to cry
cause it feels like the first time in years
that something’s happened to you,
you realize
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna die on your porch tonight
But I think I’m gonna
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would you write a song?
one with me?
It'd be cool and complex and we'd bond over
chamomile tea
but alas, you're not here, and it's clear
i'll just stay inside
with the flies
i'll just rot and pretend everything's alright
that it's cool
that i'm chilling
with my friends
i'll think happy thoughts three times
and i'll be fine
stay in line
go up high
jump off the cliff and break my spine
so i can't feel a fucking thing
substitute me for something more concrete
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4. |
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With the power of the sun I produce my kin before me
Shining down upon the forest for my friends and foes to flourish
My buds grow up with me through the stages of our lives
But high above the clouds lies our worries and our strife
I take back half of what I give without regret
Nature is my arsenal the bigger they are the harder they fall
With the power of the sun I produce my kin before me
Shining down upon the forest for my friends and foes to flourish
I take back half of what I give without regret
Nature is my arsenal the bigger they are the harder they fall
I will suck the life out of you
I will poison your soul
I am the king
I am the king
I am the king
I am the king of this stand
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5. |
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6. |
:( - Syntax
02:02
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Step up a voice for sale
buy stuff for me to say
for art you'd sell your self
for sale yeah
your unforseen
broken machine
from what i've seen today
when you're first play in the lie
paid before they all see
burn your voice1 across the sea
for. what? sold!
define i'm sane
define i'm fine
define the stakes
whoooo
you're unforseen
broken machine
for what? Wow
you found your scene you fall away
you're not in sync you're far away
before your soul can burn away
think twice yeah
we'll find our sync
we'll have our day
we'll gain our stakes
blank cheques delayed
i'll still play? I've been paid?
think not
i wont say, what's been said before
i wont break iiiiiiii
can't buy my say, i'll have my say
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7. |
HYPERDEMON - WRECK_01
02:42
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i'm fucking dust
ripping new holes in my shirt
just grab another one
[incomprehensible]
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8. |
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9. |
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10. |
imjar - blipNsw33t
02:42
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11. |
Petriform - on giving up
04:45
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a million futures aligned
cast aside
dreams born of hope overnight
always die
what good are all these things that i tried to talk through
i don't feel like myself nor do i want to
so do i run, again
the numbers on giving up
and it's begun, again
i run, i run, and i run
i walked a long road at night
on one side
no place to cross when it's time
never mind
and i let far too much go unsaid for years
i didn't have it in me to shed more tears
so now i run, again
the numbers on giving up
if i could feel, again
there's something left to love
that might be enough
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12. |
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I don't know who I should be
another year to be just me
another year to follow through
with all these things I want to do
52 weeks is not enough
and I guess that's just tough luck
can't control what other's do
but at least I've pulled on through
I know I really don't care
but is that true and
I still want more then what I can't reach and
I don't want to stay
but I don't think I should
go and be right here
but I think I'm better off alone
and it's somewhere around here
leave myself behind
be the person I have always known
then why can't I choose
I don't really know who I'd rather wanna be
is it better to be you or is it better to be me
there's so many things that are just out of my reach
I guess I'll figure it out
making sure I've done enough
and I think I've ha enough
have you seen what I can do
and I am ready to break through
but are you sure this song is good
I can't rewrite this, no redo
and if it's not the best one yet
then I'm sure the next one is
I know I really don't care
but is that true and
I still want more then what I can't reach and
I don't want to stay
but I don't think I should
go and be right here
but I think I'm better off alone
and it's somewhere around here
leave myself behind
be the person I have always known
then why can't I choose
I don't really know who I'd rather wanna be
is it better to be you or is it better to be me
there's so many things that are just out of my reach
I guess I'll figure it out
and if I don't know
how do I get out there
is it just another wall
or an endless ocean
I don't know
how do i get out there
and i don't think I can stay
if i just keep swimming forward
go and be right here
but I think I'm better off alone
and it's somewhere around here
leave myself behind
be the person I have always know
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13. |
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Sun leaks in through my windowpane
But this heat doesn’t feel the same
Wind rattling through my ribcage
A vacant heart and an occupied gaze
Progress in unlearning
All the rules you used to know
Carved in trees and heavier than stone
But you’ll always be the same to me
And all the things we used to do
In another timeline when it was me and you
On your hardwood floor pulling the demons from our chests
Never knowing they could be all that’s left
Or that your fear can be your friend when you’re on your own
Cuz even when you’re by yourself you’ll never be alone
And there’s
And all that you’ve got
Are circular thoughts
Keeping me up
I wind up depending
On all these hopes inside my head
I wind up drowning deep in them
And you struggle and shout
Your lungs filled with doubt
I’m not gonna find my way out
I’m not gonna find my way out
On your fire escape steps squinting into a crowded sky
The constellations lit by satellites
And I tried to put it down in words
My thoughts are a small town
And you’re a universe
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14. |
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15. |
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I'll find you a language you don't understand
And whisper in words how I feel
It's simply a matter of the things at hand
Like nerves and the balance in my heels
Redhead Dawn
Over and over I will play it back
Like reels upon reels of your ghost
I know you're in love
I know you're in love
But if I lose control I'm stuck in the
Trenches of your sympathy
Redhead Dawn
I wish that I could see you on a Saturday
So Monday I'll be tripping off your scenet
I wish that I could see you every day
And celebrate the birth of my content
Redhead Dawn
You can look at me like you're ignorant
And I can look at you like I'm loving it
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oh great blue sky, are you open to hearing all of the things that i would like to say but am not so sure about?
point my camera up take a new picture. It seems the colors are never quite as vibrant as the way i saw them
but I’ll do it again, when the the colors are just right, i’ll point my camera!
The moment is never sure so Ill l try not to hold too tightly
And these places will someday change even if you’re not there to see it
I keep the window open at night because I like to hear sounds and
As people drive on the highway I wonder just where are they going!
so, put your glasses on, try to clean the frames and look!!
a rainbow! i almost missed because I was annoyed at all the traffic and laughed when I saw it
look to the sea, it’s 100 miles down and the fog rolls in and swallows the city below the mountains
if you could fly close and touch the water you could see the specs of light transform into lines at this speed you’re going
the sound of the rain
could mean completely different things
based on how you’re living
The moment is never sure so I will try not to hold too tightly
And these places will someday change so maybe I will save a picture
I keep the window open at night because I like the sound of the forest
I hear howls or maybe wails and I wonder just what are they doing
the sound of the rain hitting hard against the roof, and together
we keep talking as we get to where we’re going
and I never get bored
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Needle in the arm, feeling fading from me.
Better close my eyes, lest I pass out.
Pink around the wrist, I’m free to go now.
Leave through the front door,
and I don’t know where I’m going
or what I’m gonna do with my life.
Drink some water, you didn’t lose a whole lot of blood back there,
but a loss of blood’s still a loss of blood.
So drink up, drink up, and so a toast, to all the things we’re leaving behind.
To deadnames, addictions, and bodies that we hate,
to cancers and blood clots and the risks that we take,
to a new day, say hey, drink up while you can,
because water is something we need to survive.
Over and over the hormones they're taking over
I’m afraid to admit it, but I guess I’ll admit that
I don’t know where I’m going,
or what I’m gonna do with my life.
To hell with it all,
I have broken the bindings around my wrists, and they fall.
I am no longer stuck in this disgusting frame.
My whole life I’ve been told to be who you are,
but I haven’t been able to do that thus far,
until somebody told me that I wasn’t all alone.
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I am my own hell
And I have made my home
In a place where no one ever goes
I'll always be alone
I'm learning all kinds of tricks
How to drain the blood out of my face
And spend a summer in bed
So everyone will think i'm dead
When I come back to you
It'll be on my hands and knees
I'd be lying if I said
I didn't dream sometimes
About what it would be like
If I didn't have this life
My legs start to shake
When it's my time to leave
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Are you gonna live your life wondering
Standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinking
How you've grown up
Or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want
Even at twenty five you gotta start sometime
I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
All I need is just to hear a song I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight
Are you gonna to live your life
Standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out
Someone's gonna to ask you what it's all about
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down
Someone's gonna to ask you what's it's all about
What are you gonna have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
All I need is just to hear a song I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight
Crimson and clover, over and over
Crimson and clover, over and over
Our house in the middle of the street (Crimson and clover, over and over)
Why did we ever meet
Start in my rock and roll fantasy (Crimson and clover, over and over)
Don't don't, don't let's star (Crimson and clover, over and over)
Why did we ever part (Crimson and clover, over and over)
Kick start my rock and roll heart (Crimson and clover, over and over)
I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
So come on Davey, sing me something that I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight (Here, tonight)
I wanna fall in love tonight (Here, tonight)
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight
I wanna fall in love tonight
I wanna fall in love tonight
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I wake up at noon
And put on yesterday’s pants
Don’t give me the time or any respect
Just a judgmental glance
And when they call on me
You know I might not show up
And in the off chance that I do
I’ll probably just throw up
Sway and stumble
Stumble and sway
Mumble-y mumble
What’s that you say?
Drinking my courage ’til I think I can dance
But if I checked the footage
I’d know that I can’t
What a waste of talent
What a wasted talent yeah
What a wasted talent yeah
I think I might have missed my show
But I don’t really care
Because my main concern right now
Is not falling down the stairs
Sway and stumble
Stumble and sway
Mumble-y mumble
What’s that you say?
You think this is easy?
Maybe I’m dedicated?
The joke’s on you
I’m heavily medicated
Where’s the encore?
It’s in the back of my van
I sing it while choking and laying down
‘Cause I’m too wasted to stand
What a waste of talent
What a wasted talent yeah
What a waste of talent
What a wasted talent yeah
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22. |
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23. |
Buried For A Day - Wild
01:33
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24. |
cloudform - reflection
04:33
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25. |
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26. |
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come summer days if i cry
burn me up boil my skin i'll float by
fill my back pocket with sand
and die for dreams again
babababababbababaabbabababba
just before the sun comes up you glow
why didn't you tell me so
boy in the stars
right before my eyes you fade away
why didn't you tell me so
boy in the stars
run, tumble, trundle and fall
though i will not remember it all
hearts will bend, break and decay
and time won't pass a day
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they spend their time taking pictures of roadkill
cut 'em out and put 'em on their wall there
and half the time they're living in a dream land
deep in their cave, a shrine to what is gone
and they're gone
the camera lens captures images of violence
on creatures made of skeletons and doll parts
the picture pans to the host, and looks right in his eyes
and it sends a shiver down their spine
and it's time
oh yeah, it's time
take a little picture, keep it by your side
hold onto it close when it's dark outside
i feel you now, i feel you now
the artist stands deep within a forest
with lucy's eye still burning in their mind
and when it's time to finish what they came here for
something new will rise up in their stead
like lucy said
it's like lucy said
oh yeah, it's like lucy said
oh yeah, it's just like lucy said
take a little picture, keep it close to you
ask it when you don't know what you're supposed to do
i feel you now i feel you now
take a little picture, if only in your heart
keep it to remind you of your better parts
i feel you now, i feel you now
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30. |
dork xtra - I Meant To
02:08
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i meant to say bye
i meant to talk more last night
i meant to tell you a long time ago
but i didn't try,
freezing and full of fright
cause i always fear the things i don't know
and if i said anything more
i'm pretty sure
you'd figure, i feel for you x3
or maybe you already do
i'm bad at keeping it secret
so fuck it
i feel for you x4
i meant to say bye
i meant to talk more last night
i meant to tell you a long time ago
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jesus shit all i want is to piss outside and yell for the hell of it
but i'm too nervous to pretend i know where the front door is
so maybe we can both move past our unpaid debts
and get on with season 3 of yuru yuri
and if you make it past the driveway
i'll be waiting here alone for you
till midnight or 3 years from now
so fuck off family, friends, or lovers
(fuck off family, friends, or lovers)
i wouldn't have it any other way
kill me baby
i really hope that everyone hates me
crush me slowly
i wanna bleed on and on and on
smash my head
drag me down to hell and back again
i wanna see what life is like without me
i don't fucking wanna own a car
and i don't fucking wanna work a job
all i want is for everything to keep going on without me
to bleed on and on (bleed on and on)
bleed on and on (bleed on and on)
bleed on and on
and if you make it past the driveway
i'll be waiting here alone for you
till midnight or 3 years from now
so fuck off family, friends, or lovers
(fuck off family, friends, or lovers)
i wouldn't have it any other way
take your time
i'll be taking mine
falling out of touch
falling out of line
kill me baby
i really hope that everyone hates me
crush me slowly
i wanna bleed on and on and on
smash my head
drag me down to hell and back again
i wanna see what life is like without me
if i haven't found exactly the right question
i'd ask god if there's anything more than first and worst impressions
and is there anything more to hold on to
than feeling every sense and every second haunt you
we were brothers in christ now we're sisters in sin
can't stand these hollow bodies we're born into
fuck you, fuck me, fuck everyone listening to this song
if there's one seat left in hell, i'll know where i belong
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i was alone last night and felt a little intoxicated
kim petras in the background is a set up to regret
tried to speak in honesty but honesty is fucking faded
she interrupted every sentence i tried to express
alcohol eats at the calcium to reveal the nacre
mute the mic, sober up, build your wall and conceal with fakeness
we can wait, we can wait a lil longer
we can stay we can stay we can stay we can stay until we're stronger
why does this always seem to happen
the narcissist in me jumps out and wants to talk to the manager
she takes my heart, looks at it, and breaks it in two
and i would die for her if its a thing i could just do
alcohol eats at the calcium to reveal the nacre
mute the mic, sober up, build your wall and conceal with fakeness
we can wait, we can wait a lil longer
we can stay we can stay we can stay we can stay until we're stronger
one day it'll be our last day alive
i'm going down with this shell aren't i
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